Hijab · Niqab · Personal

Back to Niqab

Assalaamu Alayki/kunna Wa Rahmatullaahi Wa Barakaatuh,

Alhamdulillaah! I’ve finally started wearing niqab again! I’m so happy I was able to get over everything and just do it. At the end of the day, I am here in this world to please no one except Allaah. I started on the first of June but didn’t really go out until yesterday (06.02.16). Before I went outside, I was a bit worried that I would care about what people have to say or about the stares, but honestly, when I finally did go out, I just felt so serene, happy, and content. I’m very happy that I started wearing niqab again, it already feels like part of my identity. May Allah continue to make me strong in it because I know it will become more difficult probably but I’m definitely ready for it.

I’m visiting my parents right now until Saturday since they’re leaving for Africa for a few months and I was a bit worried about what they would say as well because although my sister in law (brother’s wife) is a niqabi and they’re used to her, it took forever and lots of yelling and arguments for them to finally become comfortable for them to see her with it. When my father saw me in it, he didn’t even react. I asked him what he thought about it and he just said he doesn’t mind or care if I wear it or not and that made me feel really good about wearing it. When my mother saw me in Marshalls with it, surprisingly, she just said “Oh so you started wearing niqab?” with a smile and left it at that.

I was really surprised by my mother’s reaction because just two nights before, her and I had gotten into an argument about it and how she said I shouldn’t wear it because I need to work in a country like America and blah blah. But alhamdulillah, it’s amazing the way Allaah works. You think things will be way worse than they really actually end up. So now two parents down, two more to go: my in-laws. They are wayyy less of fans of the niqab than my parents are.

My in-laws also believe that the Muslim woman in this day and age, especially in a country like America, needs to work. Quite frankly, I completely disagree, and regardless of if I wore niqab or not, I never plan on getting a job or working because in my opinion, I’d just rather stay home as a housewife where I’d be able to homeschool and teach my kids and be with them instead of sending them to other family members or a babysitter. Regardless however, I know I’m definitely in for something because the whole side of my husband’s family don’t practice the Sunnah except for his mother kind of. I definitely know his older sisters will make comments as well and I’ll have to cover in the house in front of his brother but I honestly just don’t care. I know why I wore it and who I’m wearing it for. Alhamdulillah that my husband supports me full-on and I know he’ll stand up for me if they try to say anything.

Until next time.

Bint Abdillah.

4 thoughts on “Back to Niqab

  1. I love wearing niqab, yes it is hard sigh family but in the end it is what Allah wants and is happy to see us do it for His sake no matter what others say or think. Good job

    Like

    1. Yes honestly that’s what has kept me going so far. Just the reminder that Allaah is so pleased. It makes what everyone else thinks irrelevant Alhamdulillaah. May Allah keep us firm upon it.

      Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s