Assalamu Alaykum Wa Rahmatullaahi Wa Barakaatuhu,
This last week I can’t shake the feeling and thought of wanting to start wearing my niqab (face veil) again. I can’t count the number of times I’ve started observing the niqab just to end up making myself give up and remove it again because of trials and fitnah that happens to make me feel like I have to (i.e. Working, living with brother in law, husband’s family not being understanding due to lack of understanding of Sunnah, what people in my culture will think, etc).
Honestly though, if I’m being true to myself, I feel deep in my heart that the niqab is fardh (obligatory) and because of that, I feel so guilty at the fact that I’m not wearing it despite the trials that will occur from it, however you know what, I know I’ll have Allah on my side in shaa Allaah.
My best friend and I have been talking about taking the big step and wearing it permanently but we haven’t decided when exactly yet. Hopefully starting as early as tomorrow is an option though. I guess we’ll see in shaa Allaah.
Until next time.